I walked out and didn’t look back. I figured that was it. God was a weakling and not at all what I’d hoped for.
Over the next few months I was dogged by the Holy Spirit. He refused to allow me to walk away. Do you know how impossible it is to turn off the voice of the Spirit inside you? I couldn’t escape Him no matter what I did or where I went. There is nothing more frustrating than the hound of heaven (Holy Spirit) pursuing you and trying to ignore Him. He wore me out! He was in my dreams. His voice was always speaking and directing and strangely providing divine blessings for me nearly every week.
Have you ever had someone in love with you and you couldn’t get away from them? The Holy Spirit stalked me! The more I told Him to leave me alone and that I was mad at Him and didn’t want to talk to Him the more He talked to me. I wanted to scream, “Why don’t you leave me alone?” The answer was obvious but I was blind to see it. The time was nearing for the collapse of my defenses.